hey guys..i'm back! i know..after so long..many events took place..now i am officially mum's full time worker..darn and bummer.it means i can't bum somewhere and read my books/comic,watch my anime blah blah..been tied down by work so tht explains the long abscence..even to the point where no one tags and the tagboard became invalid.argh. okok... got myself a new parrot. A black capped conure.. and darn..heard tht it's molting...you knoe .. something like changing it's feather...no wonder it's so nippy...liew..anyway..
recently after attending ciin's granny's wake.. it reminded me of my grandparents..i guess no one can realli understand tht misery of losing a love one and worse still two at a go..so i can totally understand how ciin feels..it's tht sudden emptiness.. worse still i didnt see ah ma and ah gong before they died..i was walking home from sch..then mum called told me ah gong passed away..i was super sad and shock at tht time.. speechless..then b4 i knew it..i was at the wake at ah gong's hdb void deck. the feeling of losing ah gong was so unexplainable. Those times when he bought tiong bahru chee kueh for us.. and bringing me home from kindergarten...i miss ah gong.. and ah gong always cut fruits for us and make sure we eat them..ah gong teaches me chinese..he reads words tht i can't..and i jus cant believe he's gone jus like tht..
i felt so sad but i try to act like i didnt cry..but i cried in the back seat of the car..and everytime when ppl come to visit at the wake..esp ppl i know..i jus feel my tear welling up..then before i knoe it again..he was being cremated..and who knoes 3 days later..my granny died. jus like tht...i was feeling sorta numbed at tht point of time but looking at her coffin..tht emptiness grew..this time we can't hold it at the void deck..they say two funerals at the same area is bad luck or something.. so we had it at some teochew funeral palor..the place was rather quiet and at certain point of time i felt quite spooked..i miss granny..actualli we've lost granny a long time ago to stroke. she was bed ridden for 9 yrs..she cant even talk or move.. jus stare blankly at the ceiling or close eyes when she sleep. you know it's like your soul being trap in an empty shell..all these nine yrs.. we keep getting hospital scares.. tht granny is gonna go off but i guess she've waited to part this world with ah gong.
you knoe they say a VERY loving couple, tends to leave the world together. I dearly miss the 2 important figures in my life. When the day comes to go to heaven, i wan to give them each a long big hug.
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